Terror | Excitement

2023 is the year I re-enter the world. I know it, I feel it, and I’m slightly terrified by it.

These past two years have been so quiet—so internal—that I’m a bit intimidated by the outside noise. Like a newborn leaving the womb.

All of these sights and smells, will I lose myself to them? What will I become amongst them?

Truth be told, there’s a fine line between terror and excitement. What terrifies me most is how excited I am for the future. How happy I am to be alive. How much I trust myself and my guides.

I worked hard to reach this place within myself, and I want to make the most of my time spent. But I also don’t want to become a stranger to myself, which speaks to my fear of change. fear of the unknown. fear of the inevitable.

All of that said, I understand and respect life’s ebbs and flows, so all that’s left to fear is fear itself. And if I learned anything over the past two years, it’s that those dark nights of the soul only serve to bring me closer to myself. Closer to home.

While this doesn’t lessen the weight of life’s blows, I can rejoice in knowing that that chapter is closed, and I don’t have to let the past haunt me. There’s a lot to be excited over, so I’ll choose to enjoy the present and reap the fruits of my labor until metamorphosis calls again.

On that note, I release into the earth fear, self-doubt, and insecurity. I am light, I am safe, I am happy, and I welcome these energies externally with open arms.

Here’s to a year of:

  • expansion (think big bish. lean in. go for it. enjoy it.)

  • choice (who will I choose to lean into at any given moment? my shadow or higher self?)

  • tenderness (oooooh, she may be wearrry..)

  • access (using my hard-earned keys to unlock doors)

2023 let’s do it. <3

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